I came into BM to try and find a distraction.. because I don't want to feel the pain I'm feeling and I want the tears to stop because I can't feel this hurt on my own and David doesn't get here till tomorrow and I just desperately want to cry the tears I haven't cried but not on my own cos they say it will help the pain go away... I've lived through this on my own and now I can't do it anymore... I keep pushing and pushing the pain away but it's come back and well and truly kicked my silly ass... I came in to read the forums cos you always make me smile.. and some of you make me laugh.. I tried yesterday and I couldn't manage a reply to anyone.. Riggy.. thank you hunny... not always easy to keep up but thank you for saying that.. Emzed told me.. And thank you to Sandi.. Bobkat.. Deedee.. Jinx.. Emzed and Serendipity for unnexpected inboxes of lush... they made me cry even harder because even though I've only met four of you mentioned.. I realised I'm not ever entirely on my own.. even when I think I am.. I'm not... so thank you... and Im not putting this on the sad thread even though it is sad.. Im putting it here because even though Im not grinning like a Cheshire Cat.. I feel an awful lot lighter than I did when I came in... Bless you all and when I visit Helenes Shrine in January for her Birthday.. everyone who wants me too.. I will light a candle for you or a loved one... Promise.. hand on heart xxxxxxxxx
Jinx.. sorry hunny... it all came out in a mad rush but your fieldmice in your beard 13 generation strong comment and talking to Julie over the phone (PB on the site) and DavidNeale.. well... I'm calm and you helped me smile... I didnt meant o cause anyone concern and wasnt looking for tea and sympathy but I did get my smile back and even if it just lasts a wee while.. it's a smile... Thank you
Leaving a Smile for Jinx.. Purple Betty and David... and everyone eles who needs a smilier smile... Bless your beautiful hearts and thank you... This was playing randomly.. and you do.. all of you xxxxx
- "Colour My World" (1966)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CCPQYolrvhQ&feature=...sponse_rev
rockchickeelicious i don't know you or whats happened, but know i am sending you positive thoughts and asking my Angels to help you through this difficult time
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Yesterday as it 'appens, got out of hosp', nothing much on telly so dosed myself up on painkillers, did a-bit of channel surfing and a 2hr preview of the IOM on ITV 4.
What made me smile was reading the posts of rockchickeelicious
and realising that we can ALL make a difference
Even without making a special effort
Just by being US
Here's to a happy day for everyone
If you're out on the bike
Ride safe
Em
watching my daughter enjoy her last day before she becomes John,s wife.
So full of love for each other, no worries and so many hopes for a lasting future full of happiness together.
Reading posts on these forums reminded me that - for every frown there is a smile and for every grief there is someone to offer support. And it's not always who you expect!
But my reason to smile = My most recent (now ex) boss made me feel in-adequate and useless. A manager prior to her gave such a glowing reference to a prospective employer that I was offered the job within an hour of sitting for the interview! .... Made me re-evaluate myself again .... Perspective - it's all about perspective.
I Adore "Perspective"
It's an amazing tool when we can get ourselves to the place where we can use it..
Way to Go Riggy!!
Congratulations on your new job hunny and keep smiling!!
Me Smiling... Perspective... I have Bikermatch.. I have Friends because of Bikermatch.. I have new Friends I'm in the process of making here every day.. I have David because of Bikermatch and I have my much loved Ellieminx... although.. not because of Bikermatch!!
I am hurting.. but you know.. grief.. it's a process that has to be got through and I've found can't be avoided but it's not going to kill me and like I said.. I do have a beautiful daughter and some folk don't have any of the above and for what I do have.. then I am truly blessed
having the ability to put a grin on my favourite people's faces with the barrier (geographical) between us ;thank brian for such a post luddite phase of instant empathy and compassion that we can make people feel warm and needed within seconds(hours at one finger speed typing)GROUP HUG PEOPLE!!!!YOU AL:L KNOW WHO YOU ARE...oops shouting...crikey i've gone all rockchickee-ish----help!!
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