It was a strange feeling, lying there on the grass verge looking through the canopy of the trees to the beautiful blue sky beyond and wishing for all the world that I didn't exist - not wishing to be dead - just simply not to exist and feel the pain anymore. Every time I drew breath, I could hear the air going into my lungs and willed it to stop. I'm sure tomorrow will bring better feelings and thank you all for your kind thoughts - strangely, it's made me feel a little better
Tiggatiny, There are a lot of things in life that can be awful to deal with but losing a child must be one of the worst to handle.
You are handling it though Tigg in your own way and people on here will help in any way they can I am sure. Each day brings something new so keep going and remember all the good times!!
Simply cannot imagine that kind of pain, it's a parent's worst fear, I'm sure every parent's heart on here goes out to you hun including my own. Always here if you want to off-load xx
I dreampt I was playing football...Tha ball came over from the wing...the goal loomed in front of me...I took a diving header...and fell out of bed!
I woke the missus up, "Wot u playin at?"
"Football", say I.
"Well, it's half-time, go and put the kettle on"